I am so, so, so glad that it's Friday. What a week this has been! First of all, I have spent the past two weeks dealing with the lingering fear that I might have a freaking brain tumor. Yes, really! I know how fucked up this sounds, but basically I've had thyroid cancer (and technically still do, but it's so tiny the doctors can't find it & it no longer responds to radiation) since 1999, so every year around this time I have to go get my blood work and diagnostic imaging done. At my appointment earlier this month, my doctor paused while jotting notes when I mentioned that I had spent much of August with crazy, debilitating, vision-fuckery-inducing Migraines.
"I'm sure it's something else," he said, "you've said you're under a lot of stress right now, and it could be hormonal. There are lots of causes for migraines. But since recurrent metastatic thyroid cancer can travel to the brain, we should probably take a look just to rule that out."
So I went for a CT scan and chest x-ray -- relatively minor tests compared to the shitload (yes, that's a technical term) of tests that I had last year when I had that recurrence removed from my neck and lost my voice for almost five miserable months.
Then my doctor went on vacation and I didn't hear back from him or his office for TWO WEEKS. This looks like a job for:
I've held it together pretty well, but my poor friends... oy. They deserve a medal for getting me through these past few
But everything is going to be all right. Last night my doctor called me to tell me:
IT'S NOT A TOOMAH!
What a relief! Even though it was an off-chance, just having it as a remote possibility was nerve-wracking. In my mind I was already picking wig colors in case I had to have brain surgery. Thank you, Anxiety Girl!
Anyhooters, I got a (relatively) clean bill of health, in fact, my TG (which in my case is how much cancer I have in my blood) is the lowest it has ever been since this whole mess started 12 years ago. Plus, I don't have to go back to the doctor for another year, and my name is Bev and it has been 10 days since my last migraine!
What a relief. Stuff like this tends to put everything else into perspective. Not that the other stuff doesn't add to my stress level, but when you've got your health and the love of your friends and family, it sure is easier to deal with life's many, many, MANY worries. I am grateful.
That's what's new with me! Tomorrow I have a day of doing absolutely nothing ahead of me, and I can't wait. I think I'll hit B&N and get a fun new book to read. Any recommendations? Nothing too deep and nothing depressing, please. :)
Hope you all have a wonderful, relaxing weekend!